Are You Actually Innocent?
Innocence – it seems as though it is something that we have lost. For me it began in the sports world. Baseball was the first one I noticed, and then running right behind it was the sport I participated in, Hockey.
The game began to be filled by stimulants; drugs that would make your heart beat faster and of course pump the blood quicker. It gave players a “high” and allowed them to play at a heightened emotional state.
The game wasn’t the game anymore, it was a business, and if you wanted to succeed you would have to do what the other players did. What seemed to be a sport for the “natural” had become a sport for the drug addict and those who were willing to BUY victory and sell themselves in the process.
As a child Christmastime was a time that seemed so innocent to me. It was if the world was perfect and all was well. Looking back I wonder if I was totally disillusioned and ignorant or if the world really was a better place.
Now Christmas is very different for me than it was as a child. The reality of Christmastime is that suicides are prevalent, loneliness is at its peak and our poverty grows with all the gift buying.
Of course this puts us off on the wrong foot for the coming New Year and our depression seems to grow larger than it was before; because we seem to be living a life of hope of ever reaching our dreams.
So, what’s the good news? I’m sure by now you are tired of my depressing introduction; but I wonder if it’s very different from your life? Oh sure, you’ve had some good times, some great experiences; but I’m not talking about those, I’m talking about those lonely moments right before you go to sleep.
I’m talking about those mornings when you don’t feel like getting out of bed because there seems to be no purpose in both your life and life itself.
How do cope with these moments? How do you pull yourself out of these moments? And what causes these moments of insignificance that you have?
It has been my experience that life really has not lost its innocence. No, I recently realized that it was not life that had lost its innocence, but rather it was me.
The reason was not that I had changed into a terrible person over the years, or had become someone who was a determent to society. No, it was what I was doing that made me feel this way.
I have begun to realize the reason I do not “feel” innocent. It is because at times I have a wrong perception of me. I am beginning to see that as a child I saw myself as pure and clean. Somehow that changed and looking back at myself through the eyes of that child I realize I never put any expectancy on myself.
As a child believed I could do anything, with little or no effort. As a child I believed that I was perfect; even though I made mistakes. As a child I knew I didn’t know very much; but somehow I knew it would all work out.
Looking at myself now though, through the eyes of an adult, I seem to see things very differently. I realize I believe I can do anything, but somehow now I believe it will take a lot of work and some figuring (WRONG).
I no longer believe I’m perfect because now I look back and dwell on the mistakes I have made. It also seems to me that pointing out other peoples mistakes is something that comes very natural to me.
I have WAY more knowledge than I ever did as a child and those ideals that I had as a child seem to be absurd. Now I seem to believe I must have the correct knowledge for my situations and circumstances to work out. Although this is the way I “feel” some days, these kinds’ thoughts and actions totally contradict the Word of God.
Often as believers we wonder why the Bible doesn’t work for us, or even seem real to us at times. I think sometimes can’t see how the Bible even relates to our daily life because we believe that we have to have the answer to our own problems.
We have forgotten that way of the innocent child. If we ever expect to live in joy, peace and prosperity we must get back to that child like state. We must remember daily the price Jesus paid so that we would be innocent and would never again be tried for our crimes.
You and I are no longer guilty. We must live our lives as CHILDREN of God. Ignorance is not bliss. You must know who you are in Christ if you are to experience this world through innocent eyes.
MARK 10:14-15
14But when Jesus saw it, he was much displeased, and said unto them, Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God. 15Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child, he shall not enter therein.


